Slightly relieved bath

I was kinda excited when I went to bath earlier this afternoon. I was very happy that Brant and I had talked. I was kind of afraid that he don't want to talk to me or sthg. But as we talked, I felt relieved, and aroused. Specially when he said that I should cum tonight and at bath. After I removed my clothes, I recited that I belong to Brant, was glad that we're not giving each other up, and soaped myself. As I soaped my neck, I thought that somehow, everything will be alright. As I massaged my breasts, I imagined that it was Brant doing it, playing with my nipples. I then soaped and massaged my butt and pussy. As I am very aroused, I hurriedly rinsed and touched myself. I was having a hard time standing and massaging my butt and playing with my clit, I decided to half-sit on the toilet. I then played with my clit, thinking it was Brant's hand touching and teasing and playing it and I cum.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Night Wish

Last night, as we don't have any specific settlement, I did my ritual. After I prayed, I took off my panties, set the timer, lie down and open my legs. As I rubbed and tapped around my vagina and think that it is Brant's cock, I wished that someday, soon, he'll really do this and take me. I'm very aroused as I haven't cum in 2 days, but don't want to do it until we have settled everything. I still feel that even though I have the right for 3 nights to cum, I should do it if Brant and I are ok, since it is his pussy I'll be enjoying.

When I started this ritual, I seem to think that 5+ minutes is long. Now, I don't seem to notice the time anymore, and is always thinking that after the alarm went off, 5+ minutes flew by quickly.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Not my day

The day I anticipated didn't came. It became one of the days I quite hate. As I get out of bath, I pocketed my panties and wear just shorts instead. I was very aroused and looking forward to talking to Brant. Well, I did talk to Brant. What was disconcerting though, is the mixed emotions I felt. I want to be close him. I want to explain things, but I'm also still aroused. I didn't know what to do. I was aroused, sad, angry at circumstances. We didn't settle anything and I don't want to stop the rituals yet, so after I had taken a nap, I took off my panties and just wear the shorts instead. I didn't take my afternoon bath, I don't know if I want to cum or not. Even though I'm still aroused, I still want to cum with him, but it's not possible now. Luckily though, its raining the whole day so I just washed up after I trimmed. I just hope we'll settle things and continue as we are.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Anticipation

Last night, before doing my ritual, I decided not to use my right to cum. I'm thinking that Brant is planning something the next day so I might just get some rest and be prepared for it lol. And besides, he wants me to be on edge and told me not to cum at bath, so I'm saving my 3 rights for future use. As I took off my panties and set the timer, I imagined Brant tapping, rubbing the head of his cock on the opening of my vagina. I almost touched myself but fought against it. When the timer sets off, I was very aroused I just lay there still not wearing my panties, trying to calm myself. After some time, I wear my panties, curled on my side and slept.

This morning, I woke up already anticipating what's in store for me. I browsed, ate my breakfast and took my bath. In bath, after reciting that I belong to Brant, I soaped hurriedly. But then I remembered that he wanted me to be aroused in bath, but no cumming today, so I massaged myself, thinking it was him. I massaged my butt and when I touched my pussy, I'm already very aroused my clit is already hard. I massaged it, then rinsed and got out of bath.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Bath, late post

I haven't posted my bath earlier today so here it is.

After I recited that I belong to Brant, I soaped myself thinking it was him doing it. I imagined it was him soaping me, massaging and soothing my aches as he did. Then I kind of thought that it was funny that when I recited that I belong to him and think of him with me in the bath, I'm always aroused and relaxed. Kind of contradicting huh. So I soaped myself, massaging my neck and breast. When I soaped my pussy, I almost moaned. I was really aroused, and felt somewhat relieved abt reading Brant's email. I played with my clit, but I was kind of running late already so I didn't get to cum. My legs are also still a bit sore so I let it go for now. I'm thinking that I can just use my privilege in my nightly ritual later.

During the day, before Brant went to sleep, he told me not to cum in bath tomorrow. Now, I'm thinking which would be better, if I cum tonight or not. I have a feeling he has something in store for me tomorrow.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Didnt expect to be aroused

I was feeling very tired yesterday I thought I wouldn't be able to do my nightly ritual properly. Using my right to cum is I was kind of looking forward to downloading the vid but my connection slowed down while I was just around 10% finished so I didn't get to see Brant's vid. I was already sleepy with body aches so I remove my panties, set the timer, open my legs and did my ritual. As I was tapping around the opening of my vagina, I imagined Brant standing over me, rubbing his cock on my vagina. I told him in my mind I'm sorry if I had disappointed him. I never thought I'd feel aroused that night but I did. I would have used my right to touch myself and cum but I'm really sleepy and thought I might not enjoy it as much as if I do it when I'm not in sleepy or sthg so again I did not touch myself. When the timer went off, I wear back my panties, hugged a pillow thinking it was Brant, and slept.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

A Day Unexpected

A very nerve-wracking day. I have to go to work wearing skirt and no panties underneath. I'm really feeling open and vulnerable and nervous. I checked my mail before going to church, after arriving from church, and before leaving for work, was waiting for Brant's email and was kind of scared and nervous that he hasn't. I scolded myself to stop worrying and trust him. I was already on nerves and my day hasn't started yet. I almost left my purse at home when I leave for work. Then walking to the bus stop, my sandals always slips off my feet. I'm having a hard time rushing to work. On the way to the office, during the jeep ride, there was a beggar who got in. He's a guy who is in his mid 30's to early 40's, who is strong enough to work. He passed around a letter, then sat on the jeep's floor in front of me! I was already feeling so self-conscious and I know he didn't do it because he knows I'm wearing nothing underneath but I can't help myself and try to fix my skirt more secure around me.

At work, everyone's kidding me as to wearing skirt, and I just shooed them off. But every time I go to the bath, I feel very open and vulnerable. As the day went on, I was talking to Brant, I know he's just teasing me and I try to just jokingly shove it away, but I'm aroused. I try not to be since I don't want to feel more self-conscious if I stand up and walk and feel myself wet. As I walk, I can feel me being open, and being aroused at the same time. I want to constantly talk to Brant to maybe make me calmer, but I know he's also busy and I don't want to be a crybaby. I also don't know if talking to him is a good idea since I might get terribly wet if I continue to talk to him. When I read his email after I arrive from work, I was immediately relieved. But I'm still feeling open, I thought I'd get used to this because it's been quite some time now that I'm not wearing panties at home. But I don't think I'll ever be. Even when at home, if there's a visitor or sthg, I still feel open and self-conscious. Here at the office, I can't even stretch without feeling that I'm naked under.

During lunch, as majority of my colleagues are men, I have no choice but to sit beside them and try to act normally amidst their jesting. But I really feel vulnerable that I want to run somewhere, wear my panties on before going back to join them. After lunch, I asked Brant if he would change the rules, and I wish he would. And I wish I didn't disappoint him that I asked. And I wish that whatever the consequence to my request is, I can do it to please him.

While talking to Brant abt his vid, I wanted to touch myself, like I was at home, but I know I can't. There's no pressure to relieve me like when I'm wearing pants or jeans. When after some time, I stand up to re-fill my glass with water, I can feel moisture below, and cold air traveling, and I feel really uneasy and at the same aroused. I tried to limit my movements, because every time I stand up and walk, I feel uneasy, self-conscious, aroused.

I was kind of dreading the walk to the bus station when I left the office. A colleague, Vetz, reached me downstairs and since we're going the same way, we walked together and talked abt stuffs. At first, I was hesitant to walk with her. But later on, I was thankful coz our chitchats took my mind off on what I'm feeling. We separated at the bus station and I was very jittery that I almost jumped when a woman's bag brushed on my butt unintentionally. As I ride the bus, I think of what happened during the day. I don't feel my normal self, I can't act my normal self. I'm wondering if people at work noticed that I'm trying to be inconspicuous in my corner. When I got off the bus, I feel very tired. My feet aches, I'm still all nerves, I just want to sit down and rest. I feel somewhat miserable and I didn't expect the day to end feeling like this.

Reaching home, I wanted very much to wear my panties, but just wore the skirt instead. I ate my dinner tiredly. Luckily, my mom was still at church. I didn't know if I would be in the mood for chitchats, I feel kinda grumpy. I planned to go there after eating dinner but just texted my friend Ana that I wouldn't be able to meet her.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

After a day (2)

After posting at my blog, i took off my panties, set the timer and did my nightly ritual. As I was lying with my legs open and my finger tapping around my vagina, I imagined it was Brant's cock nudging me, and I was very aroused and misseed him and wish we can settle all stuff and be together. I used to wait for the timer to sound off, but not yesternight. I was even a bit surprised that 5 mins has already passed. I wanted to touch myself but I have to be up early tomorrow and I want to see if I can really cum more than once. I think I'll use one of the three cum-privilege tomorrow night. I wear my panties back, lie on my side and hugged a pillow thinking it was Brant and dozed off to sleep looking forward to tomorrow night.

At bath today, I felt Brant's presence again, and it felt welcome as I didn't feel him yesterday. Yesterday, my bath was kinda dull, with me thinking of how I can be whole again. But today, as I took off my clothes and say that I belonged to Brant, everything seems ok. Seems, coz I'm still hoping this feeling of being ok is forever, I was afraid I'd cry my eyes out again lol. Soaping myself, I imagined it was Brant massaging away my tensions and fears. I kind of felt warm and when I soaped my breasts thinking it was him, I felt aroused. I lightly played with my nipples then soaped my butt and pussy. As I' soaping my pussy, I felt aroused and at the same time scared coz I'm again tighting our bond. But I wanted to cum so I rinsed and touched myself while massaging my butt, thinking what he might think of the pictures I sent. I leaned on the wall with my hand, and touched myself till I cum.

At church earlier today, I can't concentrate much. I was really afraid of going out in skirts and wearing nothing underneath.


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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

After a day

After wearing panties yesterday, I was conscious of not wearing again one today as I took them off when I changed to house clothes. I'm now wearing shorts again. I feel sexy thinking that I have nothing beneath the shorts, and at the same time uneasy lol. I'm again feeling conscious of my pussy.

It's kind of a panty-free day tomorrow, and I just hope I won't meet any accidents or sthg

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Just out of Bath

After I took off my clothes, I touched my pussy because I'm really very aroused. I recited I belonged to Brant then shampoo and conditioned my hair. While shampooing, I can't help looking at my breasts and remember what Brant said abt apple halves. I then soaped my body, thinking it was Brant's hands soaping me. I played with my nipples, then massaged my butt thinking that I had already taken a pic of this. Then I soaped my legs, thinking that I had already taken a pic of this, then soaped and caressed my pussy and thought that I really have to have the courage to take a pic of this and not delete it and send it to Brant. I was very aroused that I almost jumped when I touched my pussy. I continued soaping my pussy, playing with it and imagining it was Brant's hand doing it. I very much wanted to cum so I rinsed then touched my pussy. My clit is really hard and even after I had already rinsed, my pussy is still slippery. I touched myself and it's really hard for me to cum in bath but I'm very aroused, my skin's tingling and feels hot. I tried sitting on my hunches and touched myself in that position. It's still hard to reach orgasm, then I thought of Brant saying that I enjoy playing with his pussy and I cum


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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Aroused Night

As I was already aroused last night, I lay down with open legs and without my panties after setting the timer and started tapping around the opening of my vagina. My pussy is already wet because I kept on re-running our conversation in my mind. As I lay there, tapping around my opening, I remembered him saying he'll go down on me, remembered the vid of him stroking his cock and cumming, imagining that it was cock who's tapping around, rubbing around my vagina, I really would like to touch myself and cum. When the alarm went off, I don't know if I'll be grateful or not. Grateful because I won't be tempted, but I also would want to touch myself but I know I had to wait till tomorrow's bath. I really have to take that one last pic and not delete it.

After wearing back my panties, as always, I curled up with a pillow wishing it was Brant till I doze off to sleep


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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Bus ride

During the bus ride home, I remembered our conversation abt him eating my pussy and I was very aroused I felt my clit turned hard and it was rubbing against the crotch of my pants. I was very afraid that I might cum or sthg, and I thought of Brant and tried very hard not to get aroused. I diverted my attention to something else and luckily, somebody rode the bus so I tried to focus my attention to those going up the bus. At home, while washing the dishes, and wearing nothing under my skirt, I remembered what happened at the bus ride, and I thought of what Brant might do if I did cum, then remembered that he might ask me to not wear panties under my pants and was really glad I didn't cum. But I'm really looking forward to my night time ritual, and most specially, the bath tomorrow.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Pic Bath

After I took off my cl0thes and recited I belong to Brant, I played with my nipples thinking it was him doing it. I then started soaping myself. When I was soaping my pussy, I imagined it was him doing it, touching it, holding it, caressing it, and thinking of the pic I still need to take. I really want to be able to take that pic, not just so I can cum at night though that would be good, but because i know he's waiting for it, and very patiently doing so. I guess I want to please him and the idea made me want to cum so I rinsed and touched myself. I can feel him pushing me to that edge and eventually I cum.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Tied Night

I was missing Brant the whole day. and I was kind of looking forward to my nightly ritual. My rituals kind of makes me feel that I'm with him. So after my prayers, I took off my panties, set the timer, and lie down with my legs open thinking of him. I was touching the opening of my vagina, kind of rubbing around it, then I thought of him tying me and him rubbing his cock around my vagina, and the feeling was so intense I almost touched myself. But I know I can't and it was torture. The alarm went off, and I still wish I can go on and touch myself. Geez, I think I really have to have that courage in taking the pics. I had already taken the butt pics but I'm feeling conscious abt it. I really wish Brant was here.


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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Tied Bath

I was kind of aroused by the vids that I had watched, and was missing Brant, so after I had took off my clothes, I recited that I belong to Brant and started playing with my nipples, thinking that it was him doing it. Then I started soaping myself, thinking abt our conversation yesterday. Then as I was soaping my pussy, I remembered abt the pics I had to take and thought abt him saying that I take the pics without sending it to him first till I became comfortable. I was getting aroused thinking how to please him I wanted to cum so I rinsed and touched myself. While caressing my self, I remembered one of our conversations when he said that he'll tie me to a chair with a vibe then I cum.


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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Calm but aroused

I thought I was kind of used to not wearing panties at home. Yesterday, our church overseer passed by our houe and made little chitchat. I got conscious even though I know she wouldn't know I'm wearing nothing under the skirt

Yesternight, as I made my nightly ritual, I can feel Brant sort of smiling at me, and I'm a little aroused but in a calm state since he has allowed me to cum twice while we were talking. I can even hear him chuckle which made me smile.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Trim at bath

During my second bath, I trimmed my pussy and after, I recited that I belong to Brant. I can really feel that he's protecting me and at the same time allowing me the pleasure which I've never felt before. After trimming, I can feel that I'm still sensitive so I soaped and just caressed my nipples, and just lightly caressed my pussy. While soaping, I'm wishing that he was with me, so he can see me, then maybe I don't have to take the pic. Then I think of how he wants the pic, and how I can do it to please him.

Funny when I think about it, while I was talking to Brant, I'm already sensitive but still want to touch myself after some time. But when I'm in the bath, I can feel that I'm really tender already and can just tolerate a light caress.


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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Rubbing Sensation

I was kind of looking forward and afraid at the same time on doing my bedtime ritual. Afraid because I know as I am already aroused, I'll be aroused more but I can't relieve myself till tomorrow at bath. I set on the timer, opened my labia, and rubbed around the opening, imagining that it was Brant's cock rubbing me. I'm really aroused, I would have wanted to touch my clit, just put on a little pressure but I know I can't. After the timer went off, I stopped what I'm doing and I felt like I missed the rubbing sensation. I tried playing with my nipples and the feelings just got intense. I wear my panties, and try to go to sleep, still thinking of Brant, and what I have to do to cum on my nighttime rituals.


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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Short Panty-less Night

I have never been this wet. I don't know why. I guess knowing that I'm really Brant's sub, knowing that even as I am hesitant to do what he asks, I know sooner or later I'll do it. I can feel the wetness as I walk to the bus stop and when I get off the bus. There are times I can feel myself dripping. When I got home, I had the urge to go to church so I asked mom if she wants to attend the nightly Bible Studies endoctrination and she said she wanted to so I changed my pants to a skirt, hurriedly ate my dinner and we went to church.

When we went home, I prepared to go to bed. I said my prayers then took off my panties since I was not to wear them when I'm at home. At the security of my own room, I didn't felt exposed. I checked my pussy and found it still wet. I got online and posted in my blog. I was supposed to swap my avatars but my net connection sucks. I tried taking pics but really can't stand seeing them and hurriedly deletes them as I took them. I think I'll try again tomorrow after trimming. I'm still very aroused, and I know that doing my bedtime ritual will make me more so. I'll just have to wait till bath tomorrow.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Late Bath Post

I wasn't able to post my bath this morning, was quite busy at work, so here it is.

Wanting to cum yesternight before I slept, I woke up looking forward to my bath. After saying my prayers, I checked my email then made the post abt my night time ritual then went to bath.

After I took off my clothes, I recited that I belong to Brant, then I imagined him there, hugging me from behind, playing with my nipples. As I was already aroused, I decided to start soaping myself, imagining that it was Brant who's doing it. I started soaping my neck, my nipples and breast, imagining it was Brant doing it. Then I started soaping my pussy and rubbing my clit. I imagined Brant teasing me, rubbing a finger against my slit and it made me gasp. I hurriedly rinsed and touched myself till I cum. I think I moaned but I had the water running so I hope my mom didn't hear me.


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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Tired but very aroused

I went home very tried. It's kind of a frustrating day at work, and was really sleepy since I just got around 5 hours sleep. I was also thinking of what happened the whole day with Brant and can't help but smile, as I am also turned on. I was also kind of scared not wearing my panties, feeling exposed and a little empty below. I now find myself always trying to close my legs whenever I'm standing to prevent that feeling.

I changed to house clothes, removed my panties and pocketed. I'm wearing skirts at home now to avoid pressure on my pussy. I was still very turned on, and thinking of what I have to do before I go to bed just added to my arousal. During dinner, while watching tv, I thought of what it will be like if I go out to work without wearing panties, on what I should do to protect myself and Brant.

After eating, I went online and re-read our email conversations. I browsed and then opened Brant's pic, thinking about the time we might be together. I was kind of looking forward to going to bed, because it somehow makes me feel I'm with him.

Before going to bed, I set on the timer, took off my panties and did my bedtime ritual, opening myself and thinking that Brant is with me. I was really turned on, I wish I can touch my clit and cum. I don't know if it is wise to ask Brant if I can just cum before bed and not in the shower or not. But for now, I have to wait till tomorrow's bath to touch myself, and doing it while standing makes it a little more difficult.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

hot bed and bath

I woke up feeling on edge and looking forward to my bath. Yesternight, before going to sleep, I did my bedtime ritual as commanded by my mentor and master. I had never touched myself in the opening of my vagina and was surprised at what I felt. Rubbing and tapping the opening, thinking that it was Brant's cock, I thought I won't be able to stop myself from touching my clit and cumming. I was really turned on, I would have stopped before the 5-minute timer I set, but I know he wouldn't want it since he specifically told me to do it 5+ minutes. After the timer went off, I wear my panties, and curled to bed. I would really like to touch myself and was looking forward to my bath the next day.

At bath, I can't wait to soap myself. So I take off my clothes, recited that I belonged Brant, and hurriedly shampooed my hair. I then rinse my hair, put on conditioner, then started soaping my body. I was imagining that Brant was soothing me while he massages my neck and breast. Then I imagined him teasing me a little bit more by soaping my legs instead of my pussy and ass. After soaping, my legs and feet, he then soaped and massaged my ass, then soaped and caressed my pussy. I was really so turned on so I rinse, and then touched myself. I'm really having a hard time cumming while standing, so I finished my bath, and before towelling myself dry, I leaned on the wall, touched myself till I cum. Afterwards, I rinse again and towelled myself dry. As I was wearing my panties, I sort of thanked Brant for changing the rules and allowing me to wear one.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Night 2

Now I know what Brant meant by being aware of my pussy but not having anything touching it, so as not to feel any pleasure or discomfort. I felt so open wearing my skirt without panties underneath. I said to myself "This is the preview of what it will be like next week going to work". It's easier to just sit, but when I walk, or just stand, I can feel the lack of panties, of being open and exposed, even if I think my mom has no idea that I wasn't wearing any panties underneath


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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Day 1

After bath, I almost forgot that I wasn't allowed to wear panties. So I wear my shorts and pocketed my panties instead. As I walk out of the bath, I felt the crotch of my shorts rubbing on my pussy. I try to adjust it as I walk and comb my hair. Then, I went up to my room to get something. Walking up the stairs, my shorts crotch continually rub my pussy and I can't do something about it. I was already feeling uneasy, then I thought about arriving to work and walking the stairs there, which has higher steps than the one at home and said to myself "Am I in big trouble.".

After eating my breakfast, I changed to street clothes and walk to the bus stop. It's around 3 blocks walk and I'm really feeling uncomfortable with the constant rubbing of my jeans on my clit. There are even times that the crotch would be position at the entrance to my pussy, which is really uncomfortable. I planned to wear just cotton pants instead of jeans, but they are light colored and I was afraid that if I get wet, it will be obvious. During the bus ride, I tried to sleep or think of other things so that my clit will be relaxed and won't rub match on my pants. There are times that I don't feel it and there are times that I do. Then, I have to go down and transfer to a jeep. The jeep's vibration while I was seated was too much. I almost gasp. I want to curl but can't. So I just sort of hugged my bag. After the jeep ride, I'm really kind of nervous and jumpy, and I can't help thinking that I have to walk those stairs. As expected, climbing up the stairs put more pressure on my pussy. I even dropped my ID at the door due to edginess.

While seated at my desk, I was constantly checking if Brant is online. I was really jumpy. and was afraid I won't last the day. Then I got to talk to Brant, and I don't know, talking to him has calmed me down. It took my nervousness and jumpiness away. So I said that I might be able to last the day after all. After Brant went to bed, I'm back to feeling a little jumpy lol. There was this instance that I was walking then ballpen fell and got to pick it up, and the pressure of the pants at my crotch almost made me hiss. The walk to the bus stop after work was as difficult, if not more. I was thinking that if I was walking with Brant, I would put have marks on his hand or arm caused by my clutching him.

Arriving home, I hurriedly got out of my pants and felt relieved. But I still need to wear my shorts. I ate dinner, chatted with mom while watching tv, trying to act that everything's normal. I then went upstairs for bed and pocketed my panties. When I got out of the shorts to wear my panties, I soothed my aching pussy, but remembered Brant saying I can't touch myself so I stopped. I wear my shorts back, prayed, took off my shorts and soothed my pussy again, but stopped midway and slept.


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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Being a Sub to My Mentor and Master

Being your sub, there are a lot of things that I enjoy. I enjoy getting to know you more each day, learning of things we have in common, and things we complement each other on. In the process, I also learn more about myself, things I didn't thought about before but realized that it's a part of me. I also like the feeling of being taken cared of and valued. I like the feeling of having someone I can talk to openly, of sharing what I think, and hearing out what he thinks and feels. I like the feeling of being alive, of anticipating each new day. I also learn the value of little and simple things that I took for granted, like wearing panties. I also like the feeling like we’re together even though we’re 10k miles apart. (But of course, nothing beats the reality of being together.)

I also anticipate things that you plan for me, the tasks I have to do, because I know you have reasons for asking me to do them, and that will be for my growth, as well as our relationship. I also like the challenge in doing the tasks though I dread that I might not be able to do it and would disappoint you.



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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Sore Bath

I was a still a little sore from yesterday when I went to bath today. I entered the bath, took off my clothes and tried to check myself. Then I recited me belonging to Brant and soaped myself. I imagined that he was there, taking care of me, knowing that I am sore and all. I then started soaping, massaging my neck and breast. I was turned on but I was a little afraid of touching myself. But eventually, I have to soap myself so I imagined that it was his hand touching me, soothing away the soreness. I then massaged my ass as I continue to touch myself thinking it was him. I was very turned on, but was afraid of putting more pressure, so I rinsed myself and hurried out of the bath to be able to talk to Brant.

Conscious Bath

Woke up an hour early but t0ld myself Brant is out and won't be online so I went back to sleep. Woke up at the sound of my alarm at 5am, did my morning rituals and logged on the internet. Read Brant's email and got turned on when he stated my pussy as his. Read the bl0g he made, and went to bath thinking of the panty rules. When I was in the bath and naked, I recited his ownership and soaped myself. I imagined him in front of me, watching me while soaping me. I got very consci0us even if I'm alone in the bath. I imagined him soaping my pussy, I was already turned on and wanted to cum but was still feeling consci0us. I continued touching myself, thinking it was him doing it. I rinsed, touched myself, closed my eyes, and told him in my mind that I want to cum and imagined him saying that I could and then I cum.

After toweling myself dry, I pocketed my panties and wear my shorts and shirt instead. I had to fix my short so that the crotch won't directly rub my pussy when I walk. But my room is upstairs and when I walk up the stairs, I can see the problem. And our office is located in the second floor of a 2-story building. I think I'll be having another long hot day today.

Likes

Today I'd like you to make me a list of 10 things you think you'd like me to command you to do online. list them order from most desired to least.

1. Read informative stuff
2. Do something like the bath thing
3. Play games that would reveal compatibility or something
4. Research on stuff
5. Wear something at home
6. Not wear something at home
7. Watch film
8. Do sthg to prepare me for play sessions
9. Sleeping position or sthg
10. Wear a collar (might not yet be applicable lol)
11. Not allow to do something

10 things I'd be reluctant to do

I want you to make a numbered list of 10 things you would be reluctant to do, if I commanded them of you online. This is not a list to give me ideas to torment you, I want to see where your mindset is. Rate each item on the list 1-3 1 being easiest, 3 being very hard.

1. taking pics in the nude - 1
2. taking videos - 2
3. making online shows - 2
4. shaving - 1
5. asking to wear something - 2
6. asking not to wear something - 3
7. something like sex on phone but online - 1
8. use toys - 3
9. go to adult store - 3
10. buy porn - 3

#1 and 4, was originally difficult for me, but when I understand how it is for you, why you want it, I'm willing to do them if you want. But I still have to do my assignment on the shaving stuff.

#8 -- i don't have one
#9 -- i'm not really comfortable. been there once with my mom to buy a present for my friend's wedding shower. I think my mom's not comfortable as well lol

A hot bath and a scared bath

Yesterday, I was already turnd on before taking my bath. (I was touching myself over my panties while I was online). I t0ok a quick shower, touched myself while soaping, partially rinsed, then touched myself. I imagined your hard-on poking at my back and you're the one touching me and made me cum quickly but no less intense. I was shaking that I need to rest awhile before continuing rinsing.

Maybe because I was kind of in a hurry when I took my morning bath that I just touched myself but didn't cum because I'm running late for church.

This morning, I wasn't turnd on. I was kind of afraid and distracted at the list I have to make. So I soap myself, but then, I always imagined that it's your hand who's soaping me, so I got turned on and soaped my pussy. I touched myself and felt the need to cum but can't seem to find the right pressure again, then I remembered you saying about grabbing my ass, so I pressed my left hand behind me and massaged my ass and cum intensely..

My first post

I created this blog to keep track of my journeys as a sub to my unplanned master. Though some may cringe at a girl like me calling someone her master, it's not like he tells me to do things and I have no choice but to follow them. He asks me to do things, and hears me out on things. Though I know there will be requests I'll have a hard time doing, I know he'll be there to support me and will take care of me.

I just wish we can be together soon