tired and still aroused

Wearing my shorts at home without panties with my clit relaxed made me relaxed as well. I'm not that self conscious anymore even when I have to open the door for my mom. On my way home, I was trying to come up with ideas on how to help alleviate Brant's boredom. I wished I was there to keep him company.

After emailing Brant, I removed my shorts, set the timer, opened my legs and labia, and touched around the opening of my vagina wishing it was Brant's cock, that I am with him. I'm also wishing he won't get angry or mind my suggestions or sthg in my email. After the timer went off, I wear my panties, curled and hugged a pillow, thinking it was Brant, wishing tomorrow would be better, and dozed off to sleep.

Checking my emails before I went to bath, I was happy to see Brant's email and after reading it, I suddenly find myself wet and I was surprised. I'm not aroused but very proud and happy for Brant. I thought that maybe Brant wanted me wet while he's happy lol.

At bath, after wishing to belong to Brant, I soaped myself thinking it was him doing it, being relaxed and happy. When I soaped my pussy very aroused I played with my pussy using my left hand whilesoaping it. I was very aroused that I rinsed and, standing with my back on the wall, played touched my pussy with my left hand rubbing around my labia and on my clit. I used my right hand for support but I can't seem to be on edge enough to make me cum. I closed my eyes, imagined Brant whispering, his breath on my neck, saying he wanted me on edge. Touching my clit with my left hand, I worked to make me on edge, and when he said he wanted me to cum, I cum. Cumming made me so tired, I can just move slowly. I rinsed, and when wearing my shorts, I almost fell out of balance. I can now no longer comb my hair while standing, I always feel so tired after bath lol.

While preparing my breakfast, and while doing this blog post, I'm still aroused and would've wished to be with Brant, to touch myself, or better yet, him touching me.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Missing Brant

During my night ritual, as I lie with my legs open, I imagined that Brant is with me, stroking his cock and rubbing it around my vagina. I was missing him terribly and in a way is glad that somehow, during my nightly ritual, I feel that I am with him. Curling beside a pillow to sleep after my ritual, I wished that we'll be able to have those long talks again.

I woke up a little early for my bath ritual and was a bit afraid that I might fail Brant. I was meaning to ask him yesterday abt my ritual but didn't have the chance. After wishing to belong to him and be his private slut, I soaped my body, thinking and wishing it was him doing it. I then soaped my butt and pussy. I was a little turned on but was also afraid I might not be able to cum and disappoint him. I hurriedly rinsed and stand with my back at the wall and my right hand to support me. I played with my clit using my left hand and was having a hard time concentrating, becoming desperate to cum. I was very much afraid of not being able to do the task and disappoint Brant as I was missing him very much and don't want to lose him. It took me longer today than yesterday to cum, and was feeling very tired after I cum that all I can do is move slowly, toweling myself dry and going out of the bath after.


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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

sleepy night and tired left hand

It was raining yesterday so I wear shorts so as to avoid the windy feeling I feel when wearing skirt without panties. Eating my dinner, I have to discreetly fix my shorts so it won't rub on my clit. Good thing my mom didn't notice me fidgeting. Or she does but just didn't tell me?

During my nightly ritual, it was already late and I was so sleepy it took me a long while to upload the pics but still won't work, so I ended up emailing some of them instead. After removing my panties and setting the timer, I opened my legs and labia and touched around the opening of my vagina. I thought that being sleepy, I wouldn't be aroused but I was wrong. Thinking it was Brant's cock rubbing, tapping around my vagina made me want to touch myself but can't. I was wondering abt things I heard or read where wives don't want to have sex with their husbands when they're tired from the day's work and wished I would never feel that. When the timer went off, I wear my panties and curled myself, hugging a pillow thinking it was Brant and went to sleep.

At bath earlier, I brought in my cellphone to know the time. After I took off my clothes and wished to belong to Brant and be his private slut, I soaped myself and played with my nipples thinking it was Brant doing it. I was very aroused and soaped my butt and pussy. As I was soaping my pussy, I caught myself because I was using my right hand. So I soaped and played with my pussy using my left hand and was very turned on. I was a little afraid that it might take me long again to cum and I don't want to feel that desperate feeling I felt yesterday, but at the same time, I was very aroused so I rinsed, stand with my back on the wall and played around my labia and on my clit using my left hand. I was aroused but not enough to push me on the edge so I closed my eyes, imagined Brant is with me, watching me while stroking his cock, and it made me very aroused and I played with my clit, felt the orgasm approaching, put more pressure on my clit, rubbing on it, and I cum. It took me easier this time but felt that my left hand is so tired, I need to put effort in just moving it.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

energy drained

Doing my night ritual, after removing my panties and setting the timer, I tried rubbing around the opening of my vagina with my left hand instead of my right. I'm not comfortable so I shifted back to using my right hand and my left hand keeping my labia open. I was wishing I can do the task tomorrow at bath while thinking that Brant's cock is rubbing and tapping around the opening of my vagina, hoping we'll be together soon.

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Just got out of bath, and all I can say, this bath is very energy draining. When I woke up, the first thing I thought was I have to cum at bath using my left hand. I was kind of aroused and at the same time thinking how I'll do it. When I got to bath, I take off my clothes, wished that I belong to Brant and to be his private slut, and soaped myself. As I was soaping my body, my mind was a bit distracted by the task at hand. I remembered Brant wanted me aroused at bath so I started playing with my nipples thinking it was Brant. I then soaped my butt and pussy. As I was soaping my pussy with my right hand, I remembered Brant saying to use my left hand in touching myself. I didn't know if it includes soaping my pussy, but I changed hands soaping instead with my left hand. I was very aroused, I soaped around my labia and played with my clit. I hurriedly rinsed and touched myself. I'm aroused but have a very hard time cumming. I didn't know how to position myself to relax and be able to concentrate on cumming. I then stand with my back on the wall, my right hand supporting me, and my left hand playing with my clit. I imagined Brant smiling his approval at me, and I tried to concentrate on his face and on cumming. It took me a long while before I did cum. After cumming, I can't move, literally. My energy was drained, and my left foot felt a little cramped. I rinsed and got out of bath feeling very tired. I can't seem to even comb my hair lol.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

2 baths and a night

Sunday afternoon and evening...

After taking a nap, I went to bath. I was missing Brant and really wished to belong to him. As I soaped my body, I can't help feeling a little bit aroused. I soaped my pussy and I was aroused but don't really have the urge to cum. So I rinsed and went out of bath. I'm still not that relaxed, I'm still missing Brant terribly.

At church, I'm not in the mood to do anything. Then one of my churchmate came and brought his 1-yr old niece. Playing with her removed my mind from what I am feeling.

When I logged in before going to bed, I was surprised to see Brant already online. I was thinking if we can have a call before I go to sleep but his ym is idle so I went to sleep, hoping we can talk tomorrow before I go to work.

During my nightly ritual, as I opened my legs and labia, and thinking that it was Brant's cock rubbing and tapping around my vagina, I can't help but whisper that I miss him, and to wish that I was with him.


Monday morning...

We still can't have a good connection for the call, so I went to bath. I sort of felt silly for the way I felt yesterday, missing him terribly and feeling a little empty. As I took off my clothes and wished to belong to him, I hoped that someday soon I can be with him. I soaped my breasts, thinking it was Brant playing with my nipples. I then soaped my pussy and butt and felt very aroused. I rinsed and touched myself. I'm having a hard time that I tried to squat and touch myself but can't do it with ease so I stand up again and just lean on my right side while leaning my left hand to the wall for support. I'm having difficulty cumming, then I thought of Brant, playing with my clit, stroking his cock, feeling that he still wants me and I cum intensely.


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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

recount

I went out with some friends and bought a cam and got home earlier than I expected. I was so tired yesterday, and wasn't really feeling that well. I was feeling like the colds at work is coming up with my resistance to it lol. So after changing to house clothes and doing my prayers, I removed my panties and got online to rest for awhile. I then logged out, and did my nightly ritual. I was feeling tired and a little bit unwell that I thought that I would pass my nightly ritual. But I was afraid of disappointing Brant so I lie down, set the timer, and opened my legs and labia and touched around the opening of my vagina. I wasn't that aroused but when I thought that it was Brant's cock, I was kind of awakened from my sleepy state, and was feeling every rubbed and tap around my vagina. When the timer went off, I had to rub my inner thighs, wear my panties and curled to sleep hugging a pillow, thinking it was Brant and the call we'll have tomorrow.

Earlier at bath, I was excited. I wished that I belong to Brant, trimmed my pussy and took my bath. As I was soaping my breasts, I imagined it was Brant, saying that he wants a picture of it. I was a little uneasy but aroused at the same time, my skin tingled. Then I soaped my pussy and butt, still thinking it was Brant and telling me to get a pic of it. I was aroused as I was soaping my pussy but can't cum since Brant told me not to so. I also prefer to cum with him so I hurriedly rinsed and got out of bath to talk with Brant. I was very aroused and edgy that I wanted to ask Brant if I can touch myself as soon as I got online with him. Unfortunately, when I got back online, my connection became intermittent. It was very frustrating, to want to talk to him but my connection won't allow me to :(

When he got offline, I was browsing some pics on the Library and was thinking to myself that I shohuldn't be browsing because I'm missing him more. After sometime, my mom went up and I was sitting with my skirt askew and no panties, that I hurriedly fixed it. I don't think she saw that I had no panties under and I was hoping she didn't notice anything out of ordinary when I arranged my skirt lol.


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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

his pussy

Yesternight, after logging off, I wear my panties back, prayed, and removed my skirt and panties for my nightly ritual. After removing my panties, I set the timer, opened my legs and labia and touched around my vagina. I was thinking that it was Brant's cock rubbing around the opening, while he is calling my pussy as his. I was really aroused I have to close and rub my inner thighs after the timer went off.

At bath, I took off my clothes and after reciting and wishing that I belong to Brant, I soaped my neck and breasts. I can't help thinking of what happened yesterday, and I thought of him, standing behind me, soaping me and saying that he wants me wet and the hair at the back of my neck rose. It took some time for me to get my senses back, and I just noticed that I was soaping and playing with my nipples. I then soaped my pussy, thinking that Brant is doing it, calling it his. I remembered him saying to cum as can while I'm still allowed to enjoy his pussy. I hurriedly rinsed and touched myself. My skin was tingling and I thought I'll cum easily but felt a little distracted standing and trying not to slip or sthg. I then braced myself on my left hand, leaning and playing with my clit. My orgasm seems to be at bay but a little out of reach that I begged in my mind to Brant to allow me to cum and after a while I did. I was shaking and feeling weak-kneed that I hurriedly toweled myself dry, and carefully went out of the bath so as not to slip and sat outside while combing my hair.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

almost slipped

After i took off my clothes, I recited and wished to belong to Brant. I then soaped myself thinking it was him. I was kind of in a hurry since I was able to go to bath a few minutes late already and having my ritual would add to my usual 30-minute bath. As I was soaping my breasts, thinking that Brant is playing with my nipples, I felt aroused. I then soaped my pussy and played around my labia. I then rinsed and touched myself. I had a hard time standing and cumming and wanted to sit at the toilet. I squatted instead and touched myself but still have a hard time so I stand up again, leaned on my left hand and right side and thought of Brant playing with my clit while he's stroking his cock and cum intensely. I was feeling weak-kneed that I toweled myself hurriedly so as to have a sit outside. Getting out of the bath, I almost slipped. Luckily, I was able to grasp the door jamb and caught myself.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

no sitting on the toilet

I was kind of looking forward to my bath. Replying to Brant's email and taking the pic made me aroused and feelin vulnerable again. I thought that taking the pic of my butt would be easy since I already did it before, but I'm still feeling vulnerable after sending it. At bath, after taking my clothes off and reciting that I wish to belong to Brant, I soaped myself thinking it was him. After soaping and massaging my neck and breasts, I soaped my pussy and wanted to cum. Then I remembered I can't sit on the toilet, and I just played with my pussy, taking a long time soaping it. I rinsed then touched my pussy and played with my clit but I'm having a hard time standing and touching myself at the same time. I leaned on the wall with my left hand, touched myself with my right thinking it was Brant touching my clit. I have to stop myself from moaning, I pressed my face to my left arm to stop myself from being overheard. I cum, hurriedly rinsed and got out of bath to sit while combing my hair.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

sensual bath is here again

I was excited to go to bath today. Taking a bath is once again sensual with Brant. I took off my clothes, recited that I wish to belong to Brant, really wishing that I am his. Just reciting it makes the hairs at the back of my neck rise and my skin tingle. I then soaped my body, thinking it was Brant massaging me, soaping me. When I soaped my pussy, I was surprised to find out that my clit was very hard. I was very aroused, I hurriedly rinsed to touch my pussy. I touched my labia, circling around my clit and I didn't feel that I was already cumming but my knees shook I have to sit. I partially sat on the toilet, touching my clit directly this time, thinking that Brant was the one playing with my clit while looking at me and I cum intensely. I have to rest for awhile before rinsing again and going out of the bath.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Clit pressure

At bath, after I recited that I belong to Brant, I soaped myself and thought abt what he said that I should touch my clit last to prevent it from being too tender. As I was soaping myself, massaging my neck and breasts, playing with my nipples all the time imagining it was Brant's hand. I then soaped and massaged my butt and pussy and I wanted to touch myself but stopped and just continued to play with my nipples and butt. I crave the pressure on my clit, so I rinsed, partially sat down on the toilet, touched my clit and played with my nipples, and cum. I rinsed again, and I can't stand steadily, so I got out of bath to be able to sit properly while combing my hair.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

A little tender

I wake up feeling a little funny on my clit. I went to the bath and felt it was tender. After I took off my clothes to bath, recited I belong to Brant, and soaped myself. I played with my nipples thinking it was Brant then soaped my pussy. My clit was tender, I can't put pressure on it. I soaped around it, rubbing on my labia and I wanted to cum but I know I can't coz of time constraints. So I rinsed, and touched myself some more, then got out of bath.

Earlier tonight, after I ate my dinner, I almost jumped hearing one of our neighbors call outside. Since it's hot here in the Philippines, selling ice is common. He asked if there was still ice available since my mom is selling some ice. I was near the refrigerator then, and obviously would be the one to give it to our neighbor. I was wearing shorts then and nothing underneath. Luckily though, he didn't hear my mom answer his call and he went away. I released a silent sigh of relief.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Slightly relieved bath

I was kinda excited when I went to bath earlier this afternoon. I was very happy that Brant and I had talked. I was kind of afraid that he don't want to talk to me or sthg. But as we talked, I felt relieved, and aroused. Specially when he said that I should cum tonight and at bath. After I removed my clothes, I recited that I belong to Brant, was glad that we're not giving each other up, and soaped myself. As I soaped my neck, I thought that somehow, everything will be alright. As I massaged my breasts, I imagined that it was Brant doing it, playing with my nipples. I then soaped and massaged my butt and pussy. As I am very aroused, I hurriedly rinsed and touched myself. I was having a hard time standing and massaging my butt and playing with my clit, I decided to half-sit on the toilet. I then played with my clit, thinking it was Brant's hand touching and teasing and playing it and I cum.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Anticipation

Last night, before doing my ritual, I decided not to use my right to cum. I'm thinking that Brant is planning something the next day so I might just get some rest and be prepared for it lol. And besides, he wants me to be on edge and told me not to cum at bath, so I'm saving my 3 rights for future use. As I took off my panties and set the timer, I imagined Brant tapping, rubbing the head of his cock on the opening of my vagina. I almost touched myself but fought against it. When the timer sets off, I was very aroused I just lay there still not wearing my panties, trying to calm myself. After some time, I wear my panties, curled on my side and slept.

This morning, I woke up already anticipating what's in store for me. I browsed, ate my breakfast and took my bath. In bath, after reciting that I belong to Brant, I soaped hurriedly. But then I remembered that he wanted me to be aroused in bath, but no cumming today, so I massaged myself, thinking it was him. I massaged my butt and when I touched my pussy, I'm already very aroused my clit is already hard. I massaged it, then rinsed and got out of bath.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Bath, late post

I haven't posted my bath earlier today so here it is.

After I recited that I belong to Brant, I soaped myself thinking it was him doing it. I imagined it was him soaping me, massaging and soothing my aches as he did. Then I kind of thought that it was funny that when I recited that I belong to him and think of him with me in the bath, I'm always aroused and relaxed. Kind of contradicting huh. So I soaped myself, massaging my neck and breast. When I soaped my pussy, I almost moaned. I was really aroused, and felt somewhat relieved abt reading Brant's email. I played with my clit, but I was kind of running late already so I didn't get to cum. My legs are also still a bit sore so I let it go for now. I'm thinking that I can just use my privilege in my nightly ritual later.

During the day, before Brant went to sleep, he told me not to cum in bath tomorrow. Now, I'm thinking which would be better, if I cum tonight or not. I have a feeling he has something in store for me tomorrow.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Just out of Bath

After I took off my clothes, I touched my pussy because I'm really very aroused. I recited I belonged to Brant then shampoo and conditioned my hair. While shampooing, I can't help looking at my breasts and remember what Brant said abt apple halves. I then soaped my body, thinking it was Brant's hands soaping me. I played with my nipples, then massaged my butt thinking that I had already taken a pic of this. Then I soaped my legs, thinking that I had already taken a pic of this, then soaped and caressed my pussy and thought that I really have to have the courage to take a pic of this and not delete it and send it to Brant. I was very aroused that I almost jumped when I touched my pussy. I continued soaping my pussy, playing with it and imagining it was Brant's hand doing it. I very much wanted to cum so I rinsed then touched my pussy. My clit is really hard and even after I had already rinsed, my pussy is still slippery. I touched myself and it's really hard for me to cum in bath but I'm very aroused, my skin's tingling and feels hot. I tried sitting on my hunches and touched myself in that position. It's still hard to reach orgasm, then I thought of Brant saying that I enjoy playing with his pussy and I cum


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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Pic Bath

After I took off my cl0thes and recited I belong to Brant, I played with my nipples thinking it was him doing it. I then started soaping myself. When I was soaping my pussy, I imagined it was him doing it, touching it, holding it, caressing it, and thinking of the pic I still need to take. I really want to be able to take that pic, not just so I can cum at night though that would be good, but because i know he's waiting for it, and very patiently doing so. I guess I want to please him and the idea made me want to cum so I rinsed and touched myself. I can feel him pushing me to that edge and eventually I cum.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Tied Bath

I was kind of aroused by the vids that I had watched, and was missing Brant, so after I had took off my clothes, I recited that I belong to Brant and started playing with my nipples, thinking that it was him doing it. Then I started soaping myself, thinking abt our conversation yesterday. Then as I was soaping my pussy, I remembered abt the pics I had to take and thought abt him saying that I take the pics without sending it to him first till I became comfortable. I was getting aroused thinking how to please him I wanted to cum so I rinsed and touched myself. While caressing my self, I remembered one of our conversations when he said that he'll tie me to a chair with a vibe then I cum.


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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Trim at bath

During my second bath, I trimmed my pussy and after, I recited that I belong to Brant. I can really feel that he's protecting me and at the same time allowing me the pleasure which I've never felt before. After trimming, I can feel that I'm still sensitive so I soaped and just caressed my nipples, and just lightly caressed my pussy. While soaping, I'm wishing that he was with me, so he can see me, then maybe I don't have to take the pic. Then I think of how he wants the pic, and how I can do it to please him.

Funny when I think about it, while I was talking to Brant, I'm already sensitive but still want to touch myself after some time. But when I'm in the bath, I can feel that I'm really tender already and can just tolerate a light caress.


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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Late Bath Post

I wasn't able to post my bath this morning, was quite busy at work, so here it is.

Wanting to cum yesternight before I slept, I woke up looking forward to my bath. After saying my prayers, I checked my email then made the post abt my night time ritual then went to bath.

After I took off my clothes, I recited that I belong to Brant, then I imagined him there, hugging me from behind, playing with my nipples. As I was already aroused, I decided to start soaping myself, imagining that it was Brant who's doing it. I started soaping my neck, my nipples and breast, imagining it was Brant doing it. Then I started soaping my pussy and rubbing my clit. I imagined Brant teasing me, rubbing a finger against my slit and it made me gasp. I hurriedly rinsed and touched myself till I cum. I think I moaned but I had the water running so I hope my mom didn't hear me.


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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.