Temporary Unattached

My training was temporarily stopped, and being granted that 'freedom' somehow made me happy and in a lighter mood. It's as if something has been lifted off my shoulders. The sadness, anxiety, depression I was experiencing the past days (or week) was suddenly gone. I'm not happy per se that we stopped training, nor am I happy that I'm somewhat free. I'm happy because I don't need to think of what will make Brant happy, or how to get his attention, or sthg. I'm still here for him, but I can just wait for him, without being an added baggage to what he's already feeling, without waiting or needing him to somehow pull or push the strings that ties me to him.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

tired and still aroused

Wearing my shorts at home without panties with my clit relaxed made me relaxed as well. I'm not that self conscious anymore even when I have to open the door for my mom. On my way home, I was trying to come up with ideas on how to help alleviate Brant's boredom. I wished I was there to keep him company.

After emailing Brant, I removed my shorts, set the timer, opened my legs and labia, and touched around the opening of my vagina wishing it was Brant's cock, that I am with him. I'm also wishing he won't get angry or mind my suggestions or sthg in my email. After the timer went off, I wear my panties, curled and hugged a pillow, thinking it was Brant, wishing tomorrow would be better, and dozed off to sleep.

Checking my emails before I went to bath, I was happy to see Brant's email and after reading it, I suddenly find myself wet and I was surprised. I'm not aroused but very proud and happy for Brant. I thought that maybe Brant wanted me wet while he's happy lol.

At bath, after wishing to belong to Brant, I soaped myself thinking it was him doing it, being relaxed and happy. When I soaped my pussy very aroused I played with my pussy using my left hand whilesoaping it. I was very aroused that I rinsed and, standing with my back on the wall, played touched my pussy with my left hand rubbing around my labia and on my clit. I used my right hand for support but I can't seem to be on edge enough to make me cum. I closed my eyes, imagined Brant whispering, his breath on my neck, saying he wanted me on edge. Touching my clit with my left hand, I worked to make me on edge, and when he said he wanted me to cum, I cum. Cumming made me so tired, I can just move slowly. I rinsed, and when wearing my shorts, I almost fell out of balance. I can now no longer comb my hair while standing, I always feel so tired after bath lol.

While preparing my breakfast, and while doing this blog post, I'm still aroused and would've wished to be with Brant, to touch myself, or better yet, him touching me.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

Missing Brant

During my night ritual, as I lie with my legs open, I imagined that Brant is with me, stroking his cock and rubbing it around my vagina. I was missing him terribly and in a way is glad that somehow, during my nightly ritual, I feel that I am with him. Curling beside a pillow to sleep after my ritual, I wished that we'll be able to have those long talks again.

I woke up a little early for my bath ritual and was a bit afraid that I might fail Brant. I was meaning to ask him yesterday abt my ritual but didn't have the chance. After wishing to belong to him and be his private slut, I soaped my body, thinking and wishing it was him doing it. I then soaped my butt and pussy. I was a little turned on but was also afraid I might not be able to cum and disappoint him. I hurriedly rinsed and stand with my back at the wall and my right hand to support me. I played with my clit using my left hand and was having a hard time concentrating, becoming desperate to cum. I was very much afraid of not being able to do the task and disappoint Brant as I was missing him very much and don't want to lose him. It took me longer today than yesterday to cum, and was feeling very tired after I cum that all I can do is move slowly, toweling myself dry and going out of the bath after.


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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

in a not so good mood

Missing Brant the whole day soured my mood. I caught myself and tried to divert my mind to other things instead. Arriving home, I was still not in that good a mood. I almost didn't took off my panties, like rebelling against Brant, but caught myself again and removed my panties. Being in this mood has its advantages, my clit wasn't hard and I didn't have a hard time with my shorts lol. I just needed to fix it once and I think my mom didn't even noticed it. After doing the dishes, I went up to my room and browsed a bit. After emailing Brant and making this post, I plan to go to bed, needing to wake up early tomorrow.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

sleepy night and tired left hand

It was raining yesterday so I wear shorts so as to avoid the windy feeling I feel when wearing skirt without panties. Eating my dinner, I have to discreetly fix my shorts so it won't rub on my clit. Good thing my mom didn't notice me fidgeting. Or she does but just didn't tell me?

During my nightly ritual, it was already late and I was so sleepy it took me a long while to upload the pics but still won't work, so I ended up emailing some of them instead. After removing my panties and setting the timer, I opened my legs and labia and touched around the opening of my vagina. I thought that being sleepy, I wouldn't be aroused but I was wrong. Thinking it was Brant's cock rubbing, tapping around my vagina made me want to touch myself but can't. I was wondering abt things I heard or read where wives don't want to have sex with their husbands when they're tired from the day's work and wished I would never feel that. When the timer went off, I wear my panties and curled myself, hugging a pillow thinking it was Brant and went to sleep.

At bath earlier, I brought in my cellphone to know the time. After I took off my clothes and wished to belong to Brant and be his private slut, I soaped myself and played with my nipples thinking it was Brant doing it. I was very aroused and soaped my butt and pussy. As I was soaping my pussy, I caught myself because I was using my right hand. So I soaped and played with my pussy using my left hand and was very turned on. I was a little afraid that it might take me long again to cum and I don't want to feel that desperate feeling I felt yesterday, but at the same time, I was very aroused so I rinsed, stand with my back on the wall and played around my labia and on my clit using my left hand. I was aroused but not enough to push me on the edge so I closed my eyes, imagined Brant is with me, watching me while stroking his cock, and it made me very aroused and I played with my clit, felt the orgasm approaching, put more pressure on my clit, rubbing on it, and I cum. It took me easier this time but felt that my left hand is so tired, I need to put effort in just moving it.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

energy drained

Doing my night ritual, after removing my panties and setting the timer, I tried rubbing around the opening of my vagina with my left hand instead of my right. I'm not comfortable so I shifted back to using my right hand and my left hand keeping my labia open. I was wishing I can do the task tomorrow at bath while thinking that Brant's cock is rubbing and tapping around the opening of my vagina, hoping we'll be together soon.

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Just got out of bath, and all I can say, this bath is very energy draining. When I woke up, the first thing I thought was I have to cum at bath using my left hand. I was kind of aroused and at the same time thinking how I'll do it. When I got to bath, I take off my clothes, wished that I belong to Brant and to be his private slut, and soaped myself. As I was soaping my body, my mind was a bit distracted by the task at hand. I remembered Brant wanted me aroused at bath so I started playing with my nipples thinking it was Brant. I then soaped my butt and pussy. As I was soaping my pussy with my right hand, I remembered Brant saying to use my left hand in touching myself. I didn't know if it includes soaping my pussy, but I changed hands soaping instead with my left hand. I was very aroused, I soaped around my labia and played with my clit. I hurriedly rinsed and touched myself. I'm aroused but have a very hard time cumming. I didn't know how to position myself to relax and be able to concentrate on cumming. I then stand with my back on the wall, my right hand supporting me, and my left hand playing with my clit. I imagined Brant smiling his approval at me, and I tried to concentrate on his face and on cumming. It took me a long while before I did cum. After cumming, I can't move, literally. My energy was drained, and my left foot felt a little cramped. I rinsed and got out of bath feeling very tired. I can't seem to even comb my hair lol.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.

how and what

On the way home, I was thinking of two things among others. The first was my task at bath tomorrow, which somehow makes me wet, thinking how I'll please Brant, how I can cum at bath using my left hand. The other is thinking abt taking the pics. I was a bit surprised when Brant asked me why I was feeling uneasy abt the pics. It made me realize that I was uneasy because he might not like what he'll see and not because I'm showing my body to him, which was my first reason before when we were starting with the pics. It made me think and somehow fear what I am becoming.

Arriving home, I removed my panties after changing to house clothes. I can feel my wetness caused by thinking of what I'll do tomorrow. I ate dinner while watching TV and having chitchat with my mom. I have some rashes at my back due to the heat and had asked mom to put powder on it. I was kind of uneasy that she might notice me not wearing panties but hopefully she didn't.

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Submissive women are not weaklings. They are sensitive people who have a great deal of resilience in the face of their particular challenges.

Submissiveness is a strength seeking a proper context.